Arctic Yogi

December 14/13
I'm sitting here on my sofa, in my living room in Halifax, its Saturday and this will be the last weekend I can do this. The movers are coming this week to take my stuff, well not all of it but most. Dan and I will be left without a bed or living room furniture for a long while. I have no idea how long it will take to get my stuff to Tuk, even the movers can't tell me. I've heard horror stories about people loosing stuff so I am trying to detach from my stuff.

It feels like my whole life is unraveling. Its scary and exciting all at once. Dan and I have had long conversations about this and whether or not its the right thing to do. I just keep coming back to the fact that if I don't do it, it will forever be 'the road not taken'. I think that life is about the experiences, the friendships and the love you build and have. I am looking forward to creating a new life, making new friends and finding love in a new corner of the country.

I am scared though, scared to fly, scared to be on my own (I haven't been on my own in many years), scared of the culture shock, scared of the extreme cold, afraid of the change in food, scared that I might hate it, might fall flat on my face and oddly enough scared that I will make it and love it and never return. I mean really, what if?

I feel like I am saying goodbye to so much; my friends, my family, my pets, my plants, the trees, Halifax. Dan won't be able to join me till the end of March so I have to say see you later to him as well. So I've asked myself a few times now - why? why am I doing this? The only answers I can come up with are the experience of it all, the quiet, the clean air, the lack of cars, congestion, the strong community, the cold, the connection to spirituality in this community, the fact that I will be working with children and young people and of course the adventure. And of course the money, the salary they are paying me will allow Dan and I to save up for to create our dream. Eventually when we come back we will build our own tiny home, move into the woods, live mortgage free and off the grid. That is how I want to retire and this adventure is the beginning of that dream coming true.

So this is the first of hopefully many blogs to document my journey to the Arctic circle. Let the adventure begin!